Total Random Overload

February 14, 2005

“I’m gonna
Have all your children,
If you’ll get me a coffee and a piece of pie.”

Majorly random lyric.
Saw that and chuckled.
Im having a random conversation about semen.
But not altogether suprising.

Today was tiring.
Found out that I won’t in fact have a car for tomorrow.
Worked for a grand total of like 3 hours.
Ate at Dennys.
Exciting, no?

I’ve never taken someone out on a moderately priced date before.
I’m excited.
Dunno exactly what to do though.
Confusion and shyness kinda suck balls.
Sadly I have enough of both to make me shy and nervous.
Not to mention absolutely no reason to think im worth any trouble.
But oh well.
Ob la di, Ob la da, as they say.

I’m really not sure why I write in this.
I don’t think anyone reads it.
Not a big deal, but I have my Peer Counseling journal to think of as well.

My computer is stupid and just disconnected from the internet.
I can’t post this until it comes back up, which could be a while.
This may be a long post.

Anything i need to talk about…?
I’m not used to this whole “People having interest in me” thing.
When i actually find someone that I like and would like to focus on, apparently I become hot shit.
Even though Im just cold diarrhhea (sp).

The whole thing that I’ve been through with previous people I’ve liked since i became single…
Makes me all suspicious.
“Do they really like me?”
“Am I being used?”
I assume the answer to both are the better ones, but the crap part is theyre there.

I’m completely just rambling, feel free to leave if you need to use the bathroom.

Anyway, I can’t help but feel somethings gonna come along and fuck anything that may happen up.
I mean, thats what tends to happen.
Apparently thus far feelings are mutual, but Ive learned not to assume too much.
If i assume im right, it makes an “Ass” out of “u” and “me” (ha ha)

Anyway the internet is back up so I’ll end the torture now.


P.S. It’s Valentines Day.
Woo fuckin hoo.

Though I did send out one (anti-)Valentine.
Wont be recieved until tonight though.
Hail to the lord of lameness (me)



September 4, 2004

Yea, I dunno.

I feel like shit. Which scares me because I have no idea why, at least not why I feel bad just right now.

I was going to go on a date today, but nooo i had to stay home and be here with mi madre all day when ive been saying for a week how i was gonna go do something today, and no one objected. Sam was here, and I figured he was going to be here with mom, but he just kinda left on a motorcycle ride. I had like 2 hours to myself today, and I went and hung out with Adam at It’s a Grind and then we went to Folsom and Sunrise so he could pay some bills.

This bag of Starburst makes me mad. Its mostly orange and yellow.

Like most everyone else, not EVERYONE but a lot, Im pissed off at the male species. I want a boyfriend. Really badly. I want someone who I can go see and cuddle with. And share with.

My friend situation is as wierd as ever. I have a lot of friends, and some awesome ones are mixed in, but I dont have a best friend. I havent since Nikki and I grew apart. I think I’m getting used to it, but the fact that I dont have a best friend kinda saddens me. Most people know who theyre walking with at Graduation, I don’t even know where to start. I dont have anyone to call when something super exciting happens, and no one that calls my parents “mom and dad” too. I want that.

Another fuckin orange starburst.

And a yellow. Suprise suprise.

Oh well. I’m gonna go read or something.


March 22, 2004

Minimum day today, school = boring, took Jef home after school and almost died on his road lol. Working on my book more, did an hour and a half of typing notes and editing them etc. I want to find a better way to draw maps, on the computer or something. Mine are ok but not all that i want them to be. Meh.

Major drama with Greg, I feel so bad for him but glad that he called and that I did what I could to help. Hopin it all get smoothed out…

5 days until Saaaaaaaturday! I gotta make sure that my story is all worked out and mention that someone “might be wanting people to hang out after the competition, but that I’m not sure yet.” Im hoping soooooo much that I can get them to let me go, I want to go on this date really bad. I seriously get butterflies thinking about it, so hopefulyl thats a sign of good things to come!

Muah! Muah!

Ciao all!