Today was a hard day. That’s the best way to describe it. Woke up at Mel’s and got ready, seemingly upbeat and energetic. But once we got to school I got to thinking too much about something that really isn’t an issue and worked it into something that bothered me a lot. Then I got tired, and then my classes were boring. That pretty much made my morning suck, which then translated onto my work day. All I could think about all day was how much I just wanted to curl up and sleep. And how much I wanted to be wrapped up in Charlie’s arms when I did so.

BUT everything pretty much got peachy when Charlie asked if I wanted to come visit him at work after I got off and then hang out afterward. I went over and sat with him as he finished up some various tasks, and then he took me to dinner at Ernesto’s downtown. The food there is great, and they give you a shitload. I have lunch for tomorrow now lol.

I GET PAID ON THURSDAY OR FRIDAY!!!! I’m gonna have more money than I have in MONTHS! Granted, most of it goes straight into bills and paying off credit cards and my computer, but i might ACTUALLY have something leftover for myself for the first time in a long ass time! Ad I can finally take Charlie out to dinner instead of him paying for everything =P

Well, I’m way behind in reading The Odyssey for my Humanities class (which i LOVE) so I need to jump on that. Later!


She is SO the man!

August 29, 2006

I’m laying on my couch watching “She’s The Man,” the first movie of my Netflix subscription that Charlie bought me! Pretty much the funniest movie that I’ve seen in a long time. The only thing that would make this better would be to have Charlie cuddled up next to me.

Even though we got to spend two nights together this weekend, I’ve found myself feeling really lonely these last few days. I dunno why… Blah. Plus the last two days we haven’t had much chance to talk. He’s been pretty tired because of work and so our phone conversations have been kinda short. But it’s not a big deal, its understandable. This school year looks like it’s gonna be pretty tough too, our schedules are gonna be really muddled. Though I don’t doubt we’ll be able to work it out. Since (presumedly) neither of us will be working on weekends most of the time, so that should leave some opportunity. Hopefully we can hang out at some point this week too, it would help me out of my funk I think.

Tomorrow night Danny, Mel, and I might be goin clubbin’. That might go a long way toward getting my mood out of the gutter too.

Well my movie is over, might go ahead and start Batman Begins while I burn this one. Hooray for piracy! lol

Good night!

School is for Squares!

August 21, 2006

So today was the first day of this semester, and it went alright. It started HORRIBLY though. I was tired this morning because of not being able to sleep last night, so actually getting up was an adventure. Everything went smoothly up until i ad to do my hair. I left my hairspray at home, so I had to go to the first day of school with my hair a mess. I know, I know, GASP! Messy hair!? *sarcasm* But anyone who knows me knows how picky I can be about my appearance, and I was hoping to look nice for school.

BUT anyway, school went pretty well. My classes seem alright, and I know someone in either of my classes so far. Let’s just hope my luck holds out. I’m planning to be a LOT better of a student this semester. I’ve been saying that since Junior year of HS, but this time I’m really gunning down and getting myself organized and such.

Apparently Charlie slept pretty badly last night, so he was really tired and we didn’t get to talk a whole lot today. But that’s ok, I’m really sleepy too, so it’s no big.

Well, like I said, I’m mega tired, and still gotta take me a shower. Wish me luck for tomorrow!

Can’t Sleep…

August 21, 2006

For some weird reason, I can’t seem to fall asleep. I’m in Jenn’s room at Mel’s house, so the unfamiliar room might be part of it.

It’s been a while since the last time I posted, for various reasons, but I’m pretty sure I’m back to stay. I plan to do a little work on overhauling my journal’s look and such, freshening it up a LOT.

Tomorrow is the first day of the new semester of school, so I’m pretty excited for that. I’m spending the night at Mel’s house so that she and I can carpool the first day and I don’t have to wake up quite so early. We did face masques and i clipped my nails and got all groomed so as to make a good impression. I’m really optimistic about this semester, my classes seem interesting, my professors fair, and my outlook on meeting new people is positive and energetic. I have my outfit for tomorrow all laid out and ready to go.

Today Charlie and I finally got some much needed alone time. My parents left at like 8:45 to go sailing with a friend on the SF Bay, and Charlie got to my house at 9. After spending some time together we took off for the State Fair, which was kinda fun. The best part was being able to go with him, the fair itself was lacking. Though we went on a ride together and I had a good time. Afterward he took me to Elephant Bar down the street for lunch and I had a GREAT burger. He had to be home earlier than I would have liked for his dad’s birthday dinner, but thats totally fine.

However gay of me it may be, I’m really liking what I’ve heard of Christina Aguilera’s new album “Back to Basics.” I love the classic jazz era and the attitude she brings to the genre and the way its blended with modern styles as well is great. I was really surprised at how emotional and real-sounding the songs “Hurt” and “The Right Man” ended up being. And the song “Nasty Naughty Boy” makes me think of someone in a Moulin Rouge-like costume crawling sexily along a dinner table, stop and take a sip of a wine glass, throw it at the wall, and be all sexy-like. But that’s just me. =)

Friday is my 19th birthday!! I’m only excited because Charlie apparently has some plans for it, and that’s never happened for me before! So I’m telling my family that they have until 3 PM, and after that I’m going out with friends. They can push the birthday dinner back to Sunday. I got my first present yesterday too. My parents bought me a brand new cell phone since my Sidekick II kinda konked out on me. I’ll have a new number in November because of the way we swung the deal, but for now I’m using my Samsung t509 with my same number.

I would kinda like to change this blog from a personal diatribe to something a little more hybrid-ized. Right now it’s simply an outlet for my personal ravings, but with my desire to do more serious writing, this seems like it would be a good alternative outlet for that. Any input or ideas are more than welcome. Lately I haven’t had a whole lot of material on which to write, and posting news articles I’ve written just onto my LJ seems like a bit of a waste. But we’ll see. Now that it’s a LOT more convenient for me to post to this, I’ll be doing it a lot more often. Hopefully given time it will become something I’m a little more happy with.

Anyway, it’s now officially way too late for me to be awake, so I’m going to try to head off to sleep. Catch you all later!

Hello Again, friend!

May 31, 2005

My how long it has been! I notice a pattern of me writing in this for a while then not for a long time then coming back and startign an entry with something like “Wow! It’s been a long time!”

So I’m no longer in High School, which is awesome, though I don’t think it’s hit me yet. Graduation was great, and Grad Night was awesome, even though I got home at 6:30, and had to wake up at 10:30 to make it down to Sac. So after a weekend of parties and family and driving and sleep deprivation, I’m slightly sleepy.

I have a boyfriend! After… what is it… 10 MONTHS. I’ve dated in that time but it never got the title. As of yesterday, I, Luke Miller, am no longer single. And hes intelligent, beautiful, complex, intriguing, talented as all hell, and amazing. Infatuated much…? We’ve hung out lately and I kinda fell hard, and It’s nice to know that it wasn’t futile for once. His singing entrances me every time I hear it. Yep.

I spent $35 on a hat today. I found a pink and grey Von Dutch hat on Amazon and decided to be impulsive and buy it. I also discovered a new band I love on iTunes and downloaded their CD. Everyone go get the CD “Phantoms” by Acceptance, its grand. I also downloaded the Incredibles soundtrack, which is hot.

So I’m rambling now. Nite!

Just got home from work.
Actually really enjoying it there now.
I have more seniority now, basically almost head busser (only guy above me is in training for waiter)
Its good to have power.

I really just don’t want to go to school tomorrow.
All I’m doing is doing nothing in T.A.
Then I Feel Day in Peer Counseling.
Which I’m not really wanting at the moment.
Because apparently I talk too much
And no one can spare a though to tell me nicely
Rather than half the class telling me to shut up.
I know I talk to much.
Call me on it, by all means.
But do it with a bit of kindness.
Even people who talk to much have feelings.

Saturday, getting Sadie’s gear.
Got my $336 paycheck cashed so I have more than enough funds for tickets, clothes, and pics.
Plus I get payed the day before the dance.
So more pluses there.
Not sure what we’re doing for pictures yet.
Not sure what we’re doing for much of the dance at all yet limh
(P.S. limh = Laughing in my head
Because really.
Who lol’s all that much anyway?
Pronounced lih-meh
Spread it.)
Id love to get the couple’s pictures because that would be cute.
But controversy will be abounding at that point.
I don’t feel like egging it on anymore than I have to.
I’m sure that nothing will happen.
Some people will make comments
Some might start rumors
(Not that I haven’t heard the “Luke Miller is gay” one yet)
But in the end, I’ll be there with the hottest boy at the dance
And knowing that I’m the one that gets to kiss him.
And most people will look, keep their thoughts to themselves, and move on.

Debating whether or not to try for a kiss during a slow dance…
That would be hot.

Funny thing is I know he’s prbly gonna read this.
So be prepared for a romantic kiss at some point.
Or at multiple points.
Let me know if you’d rather me not in front of the people.

Basically Im way too excited for this dance.
I need to order our t-shirts.
And find a place to buy masks.
Party warehouse?
Wishing Well?
We’ll see.

My car will HOPEFULLY be done tomorrow, and I’m not knocking on any god damn wood.
Thats failed me so far.
Ill knock on plastic.
Or leather.
But no wood.
There was some stuff wrong with houw we put the engine back together so we fixed that.
Waiting for new intake gaskets to come in.


1. Your name spelled backwards.
Ekul Ynohtna Rellim

2. Where were your parents from?
My dad was born in Kansas and my mom was born in Texas.

3. What is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer?
Song that we’re playing in band now (I’m such a band geek lol)

4. What’s your favorite restaurant?
Now its Hamburger Mary’s lol

5. Last time you swam in a pool?
Way long ago actually (we don’t swim in our pool, its too cold) Wait no I skinnydipped one day this summer, that counts right?

6. Have you ever been in a school play?
In elementary school we did a play on dinosaurs

7. How many kids do you want?
I think i’d like kids one day, and if I do I want one or two girls, named Melody or Harmony, and a boy named Lyric

8. Type of music you dislike most?
Rap. Some rap is okay, i mean the hardcore “gangsta” rap. Bitchez and hos and bling bling.

9. Are you registered to vote?
No, im 17 lol

10. Do you have cable?
Well, satellite…

11. Have you ever ridden on a moped?
Lol once

12. Ever prank call anybody?

13. Ever get a parking ticket?
Not PARKING ticket. Moving violation yes.

14. Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?
I dont know. I hate heights and someoen would probably have to push me.

15. Farthest place you ever traveled.
Texas lol

16. Do you have a garden?
I help my mom with our overly large landscaping

17. What’s your favorite comic strip?
Zits, when i read them

18. Do you really know all the words to your national anthem?
Yep. I can’t sing it very well to save my life, but I know them. Kelly Clarkson sings a ratehr nice rendition.

19. Bath or Shower, morning or night?
Shower mornings, bath/shower at night, and sometimes more showers or baths if im bored, am going out, or just feel gross.

20. Best movie you’ve seen in the past month?
Last month? Phantom of the Opera, for the second time.

21. Favorite pizza topping?
Ranch sauce

22. Chips or popcorn?
Chips, definately Sun Chips

23. What color lipstick do you usually wear?
Jamba Juice Carribbean Passion or Citrus Squeeze lip balm

24. Have you ever smoked peanut shells?
I didn’t know you could do that…

25. Have you ever been in a beauty pageant?
No, but I might be in a fashion show at my work

26. Orange Juice or apple?
Apple, mmmmmm

27. Who was the last person you went out to dinner with and where did you dine?
With “Tree” to Hamburger Mary’s in Sac.

28. Favorite type chocolate bar?

29. When was the last time you voted at the polls?

30. Last time you ate a homegrown tomato?
Last night.

31. Have you ever won a trophy?
3rd place in the Pinewood Derby in Cub Scouts when i was like 9, and “Best Etiquette” when i was in the junior golf program

32. Are you a good cook?
I’d like to think so

33. Do you know how to pump your own gas?
Um… Maybe this was made in a state where self serve is illegal…

34. Ever order an article from an infomercial?

35. Sprite or 7-up?
Sprite, they have Sprite Remix

36. Have you ever had to wear a uniform to work?
Every night. Tuxedo shirt, black slacks, and a bow tie.

37. Last thing you bought at a pharmacy?
Ummm deoderant. Well, it was in the pharmaceutical section!

38. Ever throw up in public?
Once in kindergarten. Chunked it in the middle of show and tell.

39. Would you prefer being a millionaire or find true love?
I just have to quote Anthony on this one “Well, I would want to be a millionaire… which would make it much easier to find my true love.”

40. Do you believe in love at first sight?

42. Can ex’s be friends?
Yep, im friends with 2 of my ex’s.

43. Who was the last person you visited in a hospital/nursing home?
My grandma in her nursing home

44. Did you have a lot of hair when you were a baby?
Yea, it was dirty blonde and full and curly. What happened?

45. What message is on your answering machine?
“Hey guys, you’ve reached Luke’s cell phone…” et cetera…

46. What’s your all time favorite Saturday Night Live Character?
Definately Linda Richmond on Coffee Talk (played by Mike Meyers). Her legs were like butta! Like two sticks of butta lashed togetha in a rough hewn manna.

47. What was the name of your first pet?

48. What is in your purse?
Essence of nonexistence (in other words, i dont have one)

49. Favorite thing to do before bedtime?
Read until i fall asleep in my book

50. What is one thing you are grateful for today?
That my dentist complimented me on my oral hygine. And Tree made me smile, even when he wasnt talking to me.

So life is goin pretty good at the moment.
School is good.
Got 100% on the project i started last night and finished the period it was due.
Mrs. Woodbury loved it.

I’m still smiling randomly.
And I like it.
Having someone to smile randomly about is a great feeling.
And we have so much in common.
But we still have enough differences to keep things interesting.
And to be able to learn and grow from each other.

Ortho wasnt happy that my teeth have crowded on my lowers.
Back into a positioner I go whenever I can.
Then back into my retainers.
Then a permanent retainer will go on.
Wish he had done that in the first place…

I go to my court hearing tomorrow.
“The People vs. Luke Miller”
I’m a bit nervous, but prepared.
I get checked out of school at 12:45.
Hope it goes the way we think it will.

I missed ANOTHER GSA meeting today.
Luckily we have awesome people willing to step up and lead the group.
I feel terrible for not being able to go.
I mean, I AM the president.

That is all.

Im officially addicted to The Postal Service.
The band.
Not the governmental institution.

Work is going really well.
New guys are training up really nice.
I think I got the guy i don’t really like either reprimanded or fired.
Which he really needs.

Easy day for school tomorrow.
Peer Counseling (I Feel Day and getting Winter Ball pics, WOO!)
Band (I have my challenge tomorrow. Not too worried)

Car isnt back yet.
Wont fire up.
Hopefully my miracle worker dad will get it working tomorrow.
I must have it by sunday.
I won’t be happy if I don’t.

Sunday is too far away.
Don’t know what we’re doing yet.
Doesn’t especially matter what we do.
Just hanging out is enough for me.



February 15, 2005

~lol…it was “well, since i gave you a hug, you have to give me a kiss”~


I’m in a very smiley mood.
First time in quite a while that this subject has made me smile so much.
You know who you are and what you did. =)

The word “twitterpated” comes to mind.
Gracias Bambi.


Assessment testing for college today.
ARC is so close.
High school will end in a few months time.
And though Ive said I’m ready so much and so often, i dont know if i am.
High School has has pain.
Heartbreak and heartache.
Harsh realities of its own.
But at the same time it has had joy.
Amazingly positive life lessons.
And Im not sure if im ready to leave.
After this summer, I wont see so many of you guys ever again.
So many people are eager to get out of here, me included.
I only wish we could all somehow get out of here together.

i was running late for work
so i didn’t change my shirt
and the evening’s drinks
left a lingering taste in my mouth

and when i left, you were fast asleep
tangled in the sheets, and on the bus
i could have sworn it was all a dream
it didn’t happen to me

and then i felt the scrapes
from a slippery subway grate
oh, how you laughed
at my complete lack of grace
but i could not recall a more perfect fall
’cause when i looked up into your eyes
it didn’t hurt at all

and i thought, be still my heart
this could be a brand new start with you
and it will be clear
if i wake up and you’re still here with me
in the morning

and i thought, be still my heart
this could be a brand new start with you
and it will be clear
if i wake up and you’re still here with me
in the morning

be still my heart
this could be a brand new start with you
and it will be clear
if i wake up and you’re still here with me
in the morning


February 2, 2005

Ok fuck.
This was a hella long entry but noooo my computer hates me.
First entry in a long time.
In short, new style inspired by the wonderful Ms. Kelsey.
One sentence per line.
Drama at school, rumors, stupid people.
Made an anti-Valentine’s day cake.
Sharing it with Peer Counseling.
Going to lose 20 lbs.
I’m muscly under my slight pudge.
Once I lose that, board shorts, no shirt, flip flops, and musclyness.
Oh yes.
Reading up on 20th century fashion trends and becoming knowledgeable.
School = Good.
Still being single = Bad.
Not having a car for 2.5 months = WORSE.
Though I should have my car back by next week.
Ok I spent too long on the first entry.
Time to go to sleep.