So I’ve pretty much failed miserably in my goal to actually blog consistently. If you want to see the reason for my laxadasical blogacity (look at my vocabulary go!), check out the page for Blonde On the Inside, the podcast that my best friend and I have been creating. We have a growing listener base and the show is growing and getting better by the week!

I have a car of my own finally. I ended up getting a 2000 Toyota Solara, which is MEGA HOT. It get’s basically the same (or better) mileage than my Civic did and has a much bigger gas tank. I haven’t filled the tank for like a week and I still have a quarter tank left. It’s a funny feeling, I feel like my car is gonna run out of gas at any minute because it’s been so long since I filled it up, but then I feel better when I think about how much money I’m saving.

Only other news is that my Wish List is updated a little. I’m adding CD’s now and removed a few things that I ended up getting for Christmas. I feel very greedy and materialistic making this list, but its not like I’m trying to coerce people into buying me things. Though I wouldn’t mind if they did =P


Back in the Driver’s Seat

December 3, 2006

So finally, after a little less than a month, I started driving again officially yesterday. We got a rental car, an ’07 Chevy Cobalt (which I’m in love with now), and so I’m back on the road. Actually I feel back to normal driving again, not a whole lot of leftover nervousness about driving myself. I’m still freaked while riding in a car with someone else, but now that I’ve got wheels of my own (relatively) it’s not as big of a deal.

Charlie and I had our one year anniversary on Sunday, though due to school, my lack of transportation, and family obligations (which sucks). We plan on doing something soon though. We also plan on getting each other a gift that we’ve picked ou, but that will also have to wait (Christmas gifts are more expensive when you grow up and you parents no longer just buy stuff for other people on your behalf).

I went and picked Charlie up from his house today and we went to the Galleria so I could start my Christmas shopping. I haven’t had a lot of chance to see hime recently due to all this accident crap so it was pretty much amazing to see him and spend time with him. Later we met up with Steph and Kacey and went to see the new Van Wilder movie, which was suprisingly good. Then I dropped everyone off and drove on home. I NEED to work out somewhere and some time to spend a good amount of alone time with Charlie. Just to lay around and cuddle up and be close. God knows we need it.

Anyway it’s way late and I need some sleep. Though I’m probably going to end up playing World of Warcraft before I go to sleep. Oh well. Ob la di, and all that.

So things are going freakishly well in my life at the moment. My car is running great, I have quite a bit of money, yet I still can treat myself to nice things, my boyfriend is amazing and I get to see him quite a bit, my friends are awesome, and I’m in the middle of a week off of work (and my week back is super easy).

Basically everything is super-fantabulous. I wanna go to Wal-Mart and get one of those cheap kites and go to the Folsom Lake levee and fly it. But no one to go with. Ho hum.

The day is absolutely freakin fantastic, my windows are all open and its breezy and nice outside. My new cologne is good but im not sure how much im lovin it after 10 minutes, smells slightly like fake tanner. But it was expensive so I have to love it lol.

I look like a total bum today and i love it.

I had the wierdest dream last night. I dreamt my family and I took in a kid from Placerville into our home for christmas whos parents didnt love him, and I fell in love with him. There was that dirty dream element for a bit, but then it went to us all at the dinenr table the last night he was gona be there and he was talking about how amazing it is to be a part of a loving family who cares for him so much, and I was sitting next to him like weeping. I dunno what it means, but I gave my mom a big hug when i woke up. =)

So yea. Kinda rambling now. Gonan drive down to Sac tonight (well, in aa couple hours) and visit Janelle at her work, then give Travis a call to let him know I’m down there lol. Dunno what else.

Just got home from work.
Actually really enjoying it there now.
I have more seniority now, basically almost head busser (only guy above me is in training for waiter)
Its good to have power.

I really just don’t want to go to school tomorrow.
All I’m doing is doing nothing in T.A.
Then I Feel Day in Peer Counseling.
Which I’m not really wanting at the moment.
Because apparently I talk too much
And no one can spare a though to tell me nicely
Rather than half the class telling me to shut up.
I know I talk to much.
Call me on it, by all means.
But do it with a bit of kindness.
Even people who talk to much have feelings.

Saturday, getting Sadie’s gear.
Got my $336 paycheck cashed so I have more than enough funds for tickets, clothes, and pics.
Plus I get payed the day before the dance.
So more pluses there.
Not sure what we’re doing for pictures yet.
Not sure what we’re doing for much of the dance at all yet limh
(P.S. limh = Laughing in my head
Because really.
Who lol’s all that much anyway?
Pronounced lih-meh
Spread it.)
Id love to get the couple’s pictures because that would be cute.
But controversy will be abounding at that point.
I don’t feel like egging it on anymore than I have to.
I’m sure that nothing will happen.
Some people will make comments
Some might start rumors
(Not that I haven’t heard the “Luke Miller is gay” one yet)
But in the end, I’ll be there with the hottest boy at the dance
And knowing that I’m the one that gets to kiss him.
And most people will look, keep their thoughts to themselves, and move on.

Debating whether or not to try for a kiss during a slow dance…
That would be hot.

Funny thing is I know he’s prbly gonna read this.
So be prepared for a romantic kiss at some point.
Or at multiple points.
Let me know if you’d rather me not in front of the people.

Basically Im way too excited for this dance.
I need to order our t-shirts.
And find a place to buy masks.
Party warehouse?
Wishing Well?
We’ll see.

My car will HOPEFULLY be done tomorrow, and I’m not knocking on any god damn wood.
Thats failed me so far.
Ill knock on plastic.
Or leather.
But no wood.
There was some stuff wrong with houw we put the engine back together so we fixed that.
Waiting for new intake gaskets to come in.


Life is nice.
Things are going really well in so many areas.

Car is actually almost fixed now.
We drove it the other day.
Working out some unforseen kinks.
Another expensive part coming in tomorrow.
Hope that works it all out.
*knocks on wood*

My romantic life couldn’t be better.
He’s amazing.
I’m smiling.

Family is aggravating, but that isn’t anything new.

Sadies is coming up.
And I cannot wait.
He’s gonna look SEXY.
Though he can’t help it anyway.
Even without the outfit.

Im officially addicted to The Postal Service.
The band.
Not the governmental institution.

Work is going really well.
New guys are training up really nice.
I think I got the guy i don’t really like either reprimanded or fired.
Which he really needs.

Easy day for school tomorrow.
Peer Counseling (I Feel Day and getting Winter Ball pics, WOO!)
Band (I have my challenge tomorrow. Not too worried)

Car isnt back yet.
Wont fire up.
Hopefully my miracle worker dad will get it working tomorrow.
I must have it by sunday.
I won’t be happy if I don’t.

Sunday is too far away.
Don’t know what we’re doing yet.
Doesn’t especially matter what we do.
Just hanging out is enough for me.


Happy fucking Valentine’s Day everyone.

[Picture lost] 

Isn’t that just adorable? =P

Anyway, today was meh.
I basically sat on the computer all day.
Not ON it of course.
But in front of it.

Roxie is sooooo close to being ready.
I salivate for the moment I get behind her wheel.
And then I get to clean her.
Shes a dirty girl.

I almost had a date-ish thing for today, though that didn’t work.
Parents and their not letting me go out.
They killed each and every plan that I attempted to make today.
Mall with Danny?
Out with “tree”?

I apparently had some kind of gift coming that wasn’t a flower had I been able to go out.
Even though gifts aren’t a big deal to me…
It still made me smile.
*Shakes fist at Tree for being able to keep secrets better than me*

*rocks out to a megamix of Britney*

Total Random Overload

February 14, 2005

“I’m gonna
Have all your children,
If you’ll get me a coffee and a piece of pie.”

Majorly random lyric.
Saw that and chuckled.
Im having a random conversation about semen.
But not altogether suprising.

Today was tiring.
Found out that I won’t in fact have a car for tomorrow.
Worked for a grand total of like 3 hours.
Ate at Dennys.
Exciting, no?

I’ve never taken someone out on a moderately priced date before.
I’m excited.
Dunno exactly what to do though.
Confusion and shyness kinda suck balls.
Sadly I have enough of both to make me shy and nervous.
Not to mention absolutely no reason to think im worth any trouble.
But oh well.
Ob la di, Ob la da, as they say.

I’m really not sure why I write in this.
I don’t think anyone reads it.
Not a big deal, but I have my Peer Counseling journal to think of as well.

My computer is stupid and just disconnected from the internet.
I can’t post this until it comes back up, which could be a while.
This may be a long post.

Anything i need to talk about…?
I’m not used to this whole “People having interest in me” thing.
When i actually find someone that I like and would like to focus on, apparently I become hot shit.
Even though Im just cold diarrhhea (sp).

The whole thing that I’ve been through with previous people I’ve liked since i became single…
Makes me all suspicious.
“Do they really like me?”
“Am I being used?”
I assume the answer to both are the better ones, but the crap part is theyre there.

I’m completely just rambling, feel free to leave if you need to use the bathroom.

Anyway, I can’t help but feel somethings gonna come along and fuck anything that may happen up.
I mean, thats what tends to happen.
Apparently thus far feelings are mutual, but Ive learned not to assume too much.
If i assume im right, it makes an “Ass” out of “u” and “me” (ha ha)

Anyway the internet is back up so I’ll end the torture now.


P.S. It’s Valentines Day.
Woo fuckin hoo.

Though I did send out one (anti-)Valentine.
Wont be recieved until tonight though.
Hail to the lord of lameness (me)

Yay for me and random tests!

February 13, 2005

Your Name- Luke A. Miller
Nicknames- Lukie Pookie, Lucas, Pookie, Pook, Lover, Lugen Logs… a lot more but not off the top of my head
Birthday- August 25th, 1987

~*HAVE YOU??*~
Been kissed? Yup
Eaten an entire box of Oreos? Not at one time, ew
Been on stage? Yep, lots of times each year for band
Gotten in a car accident? Ugh yeah
Death Valley on horseback? Um horses AND death valley. no.
Stayed home? Wtf thats a dumb question
Made homemade fudge? Yep!
Seen the Eiffel tower? In pictures

Shampoo: Garnier Fructis
Soap: Bath and Body Works Mango Mandarin body wash
Color: Black, White, Gray, Silver, Blue, and Pink
Day / Night: Night
Band: At the moment The Postal Service
Season: Autumn (not “Fall” dammit, its autumn)
Commercial: The one for Overactive Bladder (Gotta go, gotta go, gotta go right now!) or the one for the sex line that goes “PICK UP THE PHONE!”

Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? No…
Do you have a crush on someone: Yes… =)
Do you have a best friend? At the moment I don’t think so. Mel is the closest to being my best friend
Do you rank your speed dial in order of favorite friends? No one is on my speed dial
Who’s your funniest friend? Oh god, theres so many tied for that one. Laura makes me laugh most but theyre all funny
Who do you go to the mall with the most? Mel, totally
Who do you e-mail the most? No one
Who have you known the longest of your friends? Teena
Who’s the loudest? Again so many ppl tie for that
Who’s the shyest? Not sure
Whose parents do you know the best? Teena’s
Who do you go to for advice? No one generally. I talk to Teena about my problems most but i follow my own guidance a lot.
Who knows all your secrets? No one knows ALL of them
Who do you get the most surveys from? All over
Who are you jealous of? A certain someone for being so damn cute
Who do you cry with? No one, i dont tend to cry
What is your usual quote? “We cannot achieve harmony when everyone sings the same note” (my senior quote)

Cried? Nope
Eaten fluf? WTF IS FLUF?
Helped someone? Yep
Bought something? no, actually
Dissected something? ew
Cut your hair? nope
Worn a skirt? HAHAHAHA no
Worn a tie? still have it on
Been mean? no, not MEAN per se
Been sarcastic? Its me, of course i have
Gone for a run? Nope
Gone for a walk? Nope
Gone to the movies? No
Gone out for dinner? Well not in the last 24 hours
Been kissed? No dammit
Felt stupid? Again its me, of course
Said “I love you”? In a friendly way yes
Written a letter? Nope
Written a paper? nope
Taken a test? nope
Met someone new? Yea some really nice members at the club tonight
Moved on? Not sure…?
Written in a journal? I am now
Watched your favorite movie? No, i need to watch it for a 15th time soon
Talked to someone you have a crush on? Hehe… yea…
Given someone a present? Nope
Missed someone? Kinda, in an indirect way
Hugged someone? Yep
Had a nightmare? Dont have nightmares too often
Fought with your parents? Kinda
Fought with a friend? Nope
Been Scared? Yea lol

Showered? About 7 hours ago
Ate a meal? this morning
What are you wearing right now? Black slacks, black socks that come up to my knees, a white undershirt, my fossil watch, and my puka shells, and my 2[x]ist undies =D
Are you tired? Yea
Are you lonely? Hmm no not really
Are you happy? Yep. I keep smiling. a lot. lol
Are you wearing pajamas? Nope (theres the answer like 4 questions back…)
Are you hungry? Nope
Are you eating? Nope
Are you talking to someone online? Hooray Danny
Are you ready for this survey to end? I guess?
How long did this survey take you? about 10 mins
*Do you want all your friends to do this and send back? If they want to…?



Type of sandwich: Peanut Butter and honey
Coffee or hot chocolate? Coffee
Cold or hot? weather? Cold (good for snuggling)
Big or little? Lol so many inuendos… size really doesnt matter to me. (not kidding)
Lace or satin? satin
Red or blue? blue
New or old? new
Here or there? Actually happy in the here

Ok well thats done.
Pretty good day today actually.
Got a lot of work done on my car.
HOPEFULLY it should be pretty much done tomorrow.
Needs to be cleaned like a mofo.

Work tonight was okay, not too bad.
Valentines dance for the members.
Lots of really good songs.
My head is kinda in the clouds at the moment so they were meaningful.
It’s a good feeling.
Mel made a cash tip tonight.
Damn her and her insufferable vagina.

Hopefully going to Sac with Danny on monday.
Day of Suffering and Sadness.
Though its not as bad as i thought it would be.
My mind is off not having someone.
I have better things to think about at the moment. =)

Luther Vandross is a genius.

My parents are getting suspicious.
I smile randomly.
I smile a lot usually, I can’t help it.
But i guess theres something in these smiles that makes them wonder.
Oh well.
Let them wonder. =D

Mama Mia has been burned.
A day must be set.
Better sooner than later! *big smile*


February 2, 2005

Ok fuck.
This was a hella long entry but noooo my computer hates me.
First entry in a long time.
In short, new style inspired by the wonderful Ms. Kelsey.
One sentence per line.
Drama at school, rumors, stupid people.
Made an anti-Valentine’s day cake.
Sharing it with Peer Counseling.
Going to lose 20 lbs.
I’m muscly under my slight pudge.
Once I lose that, board shorts, no shirt, flip flops, and musclyness.
Oh yes.
Reading up on 20th century fashion trends and becoming knowledgeable.
School = Good.
Still being single = Bad.
Not having a car for 2.5 months = WORSE.
Though I should have my car back by next week.
Ok I spent too long on the first entry.
Time to go to sleep.