Long Time No Blog…

October 19, 2006

I’ve neglected my LJ duties… and for that I am truly sorry…

Not really.

SO. Update time. There’s some fun stuff going on lately I guess. My parents got home saturday night after being out of the house for 2 1/2 weeks (and believe me, I wouldn’t mind them going again =P) which was a nice experience with some more independance than I tend to get. But meh.

I was recently promoted to Associate Producer of the US at the queer news site that I write for, Generation Q. It’s hella exciting because I get to work a lot more with the site in addition to writing for it. We’ll see where this takes me, but it looks like a side project htat I’ll be sticking with indefinitely.

Charlie and I are about 1 week (5 days) from our 11 month. I’m still totally head over heels for this boy. We’re both really busy with work and school at the moment, so it’s been a little hard to move time around to see each other, but I’d do anything to make sure that it woks as well as possible. Kinda cool feeling, to feel so strongly about another person.

I went to Club 21 for the first time in a long time last night and saw soooo many people that I knew, some of which I haven’t seen in a long ass time (like Graham!). It was kinda fun, until Mel and I danced for like 20-30 mins finally and then got TIRED. We took off, grabbed food from Hot Rods, and then went home and SLEPT.

Well I’m actually in class at the moment so I should probably take notes.


Just got home from work.
Actually really enjoying it there now.
I have more seniority now, basically almost head busser (only guy above me is in training for waiter)
Its good to have power.

I really just don’t want to go to school tomorrow.
All I’m doing is doing nothing in T.A.
Then I Feel Day in Peer Counseling.
Which I’m not really wanting at the moment.
Because apparently I talk too much
And no one can spare a though to tell me nicely
Rather than half the class telling me to shut up.
I know I talk to much.
Call me on it, by all means.
But do it with a bit of kindness.
Even people who talk to much have feelings.

Saturday, getting Sadie’s gear.
Got my $336 paycheck cashed so I have more than enough funds for tickets, clothes, and pics.
Plus I get payed the day before the dance.
So more pluses there.
Not sure what we’re doing for pictures yet.
Not sure what we’re doing for much of the dance at all yet limh
(P.S. limh = Laughing in my head
Because really.
Who lol’s all that much anyway?
Pronounced lih-meh
Spread it.)
Id love to get the couple’s pictures because that would be cute.
But controversy will be abounding at that point.
I don’t feel like egging it on anymore than I have to.
I’m sure that nothing will happen.
Some people will make comments
Some might start rumors
(Not that I haven’t heard the “Luke Miller is gay” one yet)
But in the end, I’ll be there with the hottest boy at the dance
And knowing that I’m the one that gets to kiss him.
And most people will look, keep their thoughts to themselves, and move on.

Debating whether or not to try for a kiss during a slow dance…
That would be hot.

Funny thing is I know he’s prbly gonna read this.
So be prepared for a romantic kiss at some point.
Or at multiple points.
Let me know if you’d rather me not in front of the people.

Basically Im way too excited for this dance.
I need to order our t-shirts.
And find a place to buy masks.
Party warehouse?
Wishing Well?
We’ll see.

My car will HOPEFULLY be done tomorrow, and I’m not knocking on any god damn wood.
Thats failed me so far.
Ill knock on plastic.
Or leather.
But no wood.
There was some stuff wrong with houw we put the engine back together so we fixed that.
Waiting for new intake gaskets to come in.


Life is nice.
Things are going really well in so many areas.

Car is actually almost fixed now.
We drove it the other day.
Working out some unforseen kinks.
Another expensive part coming in tomorrow.
Hope that works it all out.
*knocks on wood*

My romantic life couldn’t be better.
He’s amazing.
I’m smiling.

Family is aggravating, but that isn’t anything new.

Sadies is coming up.
And I cannot wait.
He’s gonna look SEXY.
Though he can’t help it anyway.
Even without the outfit.

1. Your name spelled backwards.
Ekul Ynohtna Rellim

2. Where were your parents from?
My dad was born in Kansas and my mom was born in Texas.

3. What is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer?
Song that we’re playing in band now (I’m such a band geek lol)

4. What’s your favorite restaurant?
Now its Hamburger Mary’s lol

5. Last time you swam in a pool?
Way long ago actually (we don’t swim in our pool, its too cold) Wait no I skinnydipped one day this summer, that counts right?

6. Have you ever been in a school play?
In elementary school we did a play on dinosaurs

7. How many kids do you want?
I think i’d like kids one day, and if I do I want one or two girls, named Melody or Harmony, and a boy named Lyric

8. Type of music you dislike most?
Rap. Some rap is okay, i mean the hardcore “gangsta” rap. Bitchez and hos and bling bling.

9. Are you registered to vote?
No, im 17 lol

10. Do you have cable?
Well, satellite…

11. Have you ever ridden on a moped?
Lol once

12. Ever prank call anybody?

13. Ever get a parking ticket?
Not PARKING ticket. Moving violation yes.

14. Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?
I dont know. I hate heights and someoen would probably have to push me.

15. Farthest place you ever traveled.
Texas lol

16. Do you have a garden?
I help my mom with our overly large landscaping

17. What’s your favorite comic strip?
Zits, when i read them

18. Do you really know all the words to your national anthem?
Yep. I can’t sing it very well to save my life, but I know them. Kelly Clarkson sings a ratehr nice rendition.

19. Bath or Shower, morning or night?
Shower mornings, bath/shower at night, and sometimes more showers or baths if im bored, am going out, or just feel gross.

20. Best movie you’ve seen in the past month?
Last month? Phantom of the Opera, for the second time.

21. Favorite pizza topping?
Ranch sauce

22. Chips or popcorn?
Chips, definately Sun Chips

23. What color lipstick do you usually wear?
Jamba Juice Carribbean Passion or Citrus Squeeze lip balm

24. Have you ever smoked peanut shells?
I didn’t know you could do that…

25. Have you ever been in a beauty pageant?
No, but I might be in a fashion show at my work

26. Orange Juice or apple?
Apple, mmmmmm

27. Who was the last person you went out to dinner with and where did you dine?
With “Tree” to Hamburger Mary’s in Sac.

28. Favorite type chocolate bar?

29. When was the last time you voted at the polls?

30. Last time you ate a homegrown tomato?
Last night.

31. Have you ever won a trophy?
3rd place in the Pinewood Derby in Cub Scouts when i was like 9, and “Best Etiquette” when i was in the junior golf program

32. Are you a good cook?
I’d like to think so

33. Do you know how to pump your own gas?
Um… Maybe this was made in a state where self serve is illegal…

34. Ever order an article from an infomercial?

35. Sprite or 7-up?
Sprite, they have Sprite Remix

36. Have you ever had to wear a uniform to work?
Every night. Tuxedo shirt, black slacks, and a bow tie.

37. Last thing you bought at a pharmacy?
Ummm deoderant. Well, it was in the pharmaceutical section!

38. Ever throw up in public?
Once in kindergarten. Chunked it in the middle of show and tell.

39. Would you prefer being a millionaire or find true love?
I just have to quote Anthony on this one “Well, I would want to be a millionaire… which would make it much easier to find my true love.”

40. Do you believe in love at first sight?

42. Can ex’s be friends?
Yep, im friends with 2 of my ex’s.

43. Who was the last person you visited in a hospital/nursing home?
My grandma in her nursing home

44. Did you have a lot of hair when you were a baby?
Yea, it was dirty blonde and full and curly. What happened?

45. What message is on your answering machine?
“Hey guys, you’ve reached Luke’s cell phone…” et cetera…

46. What’s your all time favorite Saturday Night Live Character?
Definately Linda Richmond on Coffee Talk (played by Mike Meyers). Her legs were like butta! Like two sticks of butta lashed togetha in a rough hewn manna.

47. What was the name of your first pet?

48. What is in your purse?
Essence of nonexistence (in other words, i dont have one)

49. Favorite thing to do before bedtime?
Read until i fall asleep in my book

50. What is one thing you are grateful for today?
That my dentist complimented me on my oral hygine. And Tree made me smile, even when he wasnt talking to me.

So life is goin pretty good at the moment.
School is good.
Got 100% on the project i started last night and finished the period it was due.
Mrs. Woodbury loved it.

I’m still smiling randomly.
And I like it.
Having someone to smile randomly about is a great feeling.
And we have so much in common.
But we still have enough differences to keep things interesting.
And to be able to learn and grow from each other.

Ortho wasnt happy that my teeth have crowded on my lowers.
Back into a positioner I go whenever I can.
Then back into my retainers.
Then a permanent retainer will go on.
Wish he had done that in the first place…

I go to my court hearing tomorrow.
“The People vs. Luke Miller”
I’m a bit nervous, but prepared.
I get checked out of school at 12:45.
Hope it goes the way we think it will.

I missed ANOTHER GSA meeting today.
Luckily we have awesome people willing to step up and lead the group.
I feel terrible for not being able to go.
I mean, I AM the president.

That is all.

Im officially addicted to The Postal Service.
The band.
Not the governmental institution.

Work is going really well.
New guys are training up really nice.
I think I got the guy i don’t really like either reprimanded or fired.
Which he really needs.

Easy day for school tomorrow.
Peer Counseling (I Feel Day and getting Winter Ball pics, WOO!)
Band (I have my challenge tomorrow. Not too worried)

Car isnt back yet.
Wont fire up.
Hopefully my miracle worker dad will get it working tomorrow.
I must have it by sunday.
I won’t be happy if I don’t.

Sunday is too far away.
Don’t know what we’re doing yet.
Doesn’t especially matter what we do.
Just hanging out is enough for me.



February 15, 2005

~lol…it was “well, since i gave you a hug, you have to give me a kiss”~


I’m in a very smiley mood.
First time in quite a while that this subject has made me smile so much.
You know who you are and what you did. =)

The word “twitterpated” comes to mind.
Gracias Bambi.


Assessment testing for college today.
ARC is so close.
High school will end in a few months time.
And though Ive said I’m ready so much and so often, i dont know if i am.
High School has has pain.
Heartbreak and heartache.
Harsh realities of its own.
But at the same time it has had joy.
Amazingly positive life lessons.
And Im not sure if im ready to leave.
After this summer, I wont see so many of you guys ever again.
So many people are eager to get out of here, me included.
I only wish we could all somehow get out of here together.

i was running late for work
so i didn’t change my shirt
and the evening’s drinks
left a lingering taste in my mouth

and when i left, you were fast asleep
tangled in the sheets, and on the bus
i could have sworn it was all a dream
it didn’t happen to me

and then i felt the scrapes
from a slippery subway grate
oh, how you laughed
at my complete lack of grace
but i could not recall a more perfect fall
’cause when i looked up into your eyes
it didn’t hurt at all

and i thought, be still my heart
this could be a brand new start with you
and it will be clear
if i wake up and you’re still here with me
in the morning

and i thought, be still my heart
this could be a brand new start with you
and it will be clear
if i wake up and you’re still here with me
in the morning

be still my heart
this could be a brand new start with you
and it will be clear
if i wake up and you’re still here with me
in the morning

Happy fucking Valentine’s Day everyone.

[Picture lost] 

Isn’t that just adorable? =P

Anyway, today was meh.
I basically sat on the computer all day.
Not ON it of course.
But in front of it.

Roxie is sooooo close to being ready.
I salivate for the moment I get behind her wheel.
And then I get to clean her.
Shes a dirty girl.

I almost had a date-ish thing for today, though that didn’t work.
Parents and their not letting me go out.
They killed each and every plan that I attempted to make today.
Mall with Danny?
Out with “tree”?

I apparently had some kind of gift coming that wasn’t a flower had I been able to go out.
Even though gifts aren’t a big deal to me…
It still made me smile.
*Shakes fist at Tree for being able to keep secrets better than me*

*rocks out to a megamix of Britney*

Total Random Overload

February 14, 2005

“I’m gonna
Have all your children,
If you’ll get me a coffee and a piece of pie.”

Majorly random lyric.
Saw that and chuckled.
Im having a random conversation about semen.
But not altogether suprising.

Today was tiring.
Found out that I won’t in fact have a car for tomorrow.
Worked for a grand total of like 3 hours.
Ate at Dennys.
Exciting, no?

I’ve never taken someone out on a moderately priced date before.
I’m excited.
Dunno exactly what to do though.
Confusion and shyness kinda suck balls.
Sadly I have enough of both to make me shy and nervous.
Not to mention absolutely no reason to think im worth any trouble.
But oh well.
Ob la di, Ob la da, as they say.

I’m really not sure why I write in this.
I don’t think anyone reads it.
Not a big deal, but I have my Peer Counseling journal to think of as well.

My computer is stupid and just disconnected from the internet.
I can’t post this until it comes back up, which could be a while.
This may be a long post.

Anything i need to talk about…?
I’m not used to this whole “People having interest in me” thing.
When i actually find someone that I like and would like to focus on, apparently I become hot shit.
Even though Im just cold diarrhhea (sp).

The whole thing that I’ve been through with previous people I’ve liked since i became single…
Makes me all suspicious.
“Do they really like me?”
“Am I being used?”
I assume the answer to both are the better ones, but the crap part is theyre there.

I’m completely just rambling, feel free to leave if you need to use the bathroom.

Anyway, I can’t help but feel somethings gonna come along and fuck anything that may happen up.
I mean, thats what tends to happen.
Apparently thus far feelings are mutual, but Ive learned not to assume too much.
If i assume im right, it makes an “Ass” out of “u” and “me” (ha ha)

Anyway the internet is back up so I’ll end the torture now.


P.S. It’s Valentines Day.
Woo fuckin hoo.

Though I did send out one (anti-)Valentine.
Wont be recieved until tonight though.
Hail to the lord of lameness (me)

*dancing around*

February 11, 2005

So yea tonight was really fun lol.
I was gonna go hang out with Nicki and Ashley and Hannah and Brandon and do whatever tehy were going to do but then i decided to see if Mel wanted to go see Tree.

Tree = My super awesome date to Sadies who I previously hadn’t hung out with.

We went to the Galleria for like 15 minutes as it was closing.
Ate dinner at Mimi’s.
Tried to go bowling and failed.
Then we got lost on the way home so Mel and I were freaking out.

Gas station attendants should speak clear english.
And know where theyre going.

We made it home safely though.

Tree is super cool.
Really cute.
Was shy but assures me that he’ll open up.
A first real date is forthcoming (i hope =P)
REALLY cute.
Lovin his car and his taste in music so far.
Wondering if he likes the Postal Service.
The Postal Service = SO GUSHIN
Probably my favorite band at the moment.
Random tangent.
He likes my randomness which is a good thing.
And hes ticklish which is also a good thing.
Of Course

Ok Bed time.
I is sleepy.
Time for sleepy ni-ni